Accepted PART 1 [ Eren Yeager x Reader ]

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AUTHORS NOTE; This is my fist ever fan fiction, it would totally be awesome if could get helpful comments on spelling, grammar e.t.c Anyway enjoy!

{ Your POV }

The room was dark and cold, the moon was covered by the clouds on this winter night, it looked like it was going to rain. The weather suited your current mood, horrible, you felt like shit that should just disappear from this unforgiving world, never to been seen again. You curled up into a ball on your bed, the cold sheets were coated in tears that escaped your (e/c) eyes, about ever night since the last mission out side the walls. You hated your self for not doing anything but run and watch the Special ops squad die, Petra had said for you and Eren to run. She was the only who noticed what you were about to do and yelled at you to stop, witch you did and are now regretting it so much. Why did you stop? Why did she tell you to stop? Was it to protect you?, Petra was your mother's sister, she loved you so much, ever since you joined the Scouting legion she would be there for you and she was all you had left to get you through this living hell, your living hell.

What was the fucking point of you staying here? Why not go back? Back to home, the home you lost along with everyone else, if you tried hard enough you could make it there, and live in peace. Your friends were worried about you they knew something was wrong, but they didn't know how to approach you. When they tried you would just say nothing and walk away, you didn't even take comfort from your boyfriend, Eren Yeager, you wanted his comfort, his strong arms to hold you while you cry, his beautiful eyes to shine as he smiled at you, his voice to whisper in your ear and tell you everything's ok. But that couldn't happen, you wouldn't let it ' I need to be leave...... They know something is up, but how much do they know? ' you panicked, afraid of what could happen.

All you thoughts were put on a halt when a soft and gentle knock came to your door " (y/n) please let me in.. " the voice called ' oh no not him, please not him' you took a breath " please leave me alone Eren, I want to be alone "  you lied to him, of course you wanted to let him in, but you knew you couldn't it would only make things worse. The handle jiggled a bit, Eren was trying to get past the locked wooden door " please just let me in, I'm here for you and I always will be. So please... " you stayed quite, he sighed when you didn't open the door. Eren pulled out a small knife he had got from the kitchen and began to pic lock on the door, you could hear the jiggling sound's of him trying to get the door open " Eren please don't...... Just leave me be. I want to be alone, I'm fine with being alone I'm used to it " you called out to him. " No!, everyone is worried about you I'm worried about you. What is going on with you? Why can't you tell me? " he called back still fiddling with the door ' Why can't he just go?  Why is he trying so hard? ' again your thoughts were interrupted by the door swinging open, you sat up in your bed and looked at him.

Eren walked inside, closed the door, walked over to your bedside table and put the knife down, he then turned to you he hugged you, he easily stopped your protests of the hug and you just sighed then relaxed into it. Your head was buried in his chest, the heat coming off him was keeping you warmer than you were before, you wanted to push him away but you felt safe in his arms like nothing could hurt you. The both of you stayed like this for a while til he pulled you away and planted a soft and sweet kiss onto your lips, you were going to miss his soft lips on yours but you had to go none the less, staying here any longer could be prove troublesome for you. Sea green eyes looked into your tear filled (e/c) ones, his eyes showed concern for you " What's wrong (y/n)? " you didn't answer as he frowned " Why can't you tell me please? " still no reply from you. Eren was slowly getting angered by your silence ' What is she not telling me?! Why can't she tell me?! She knows I love her and will always love her not matter what, but she won't take my comfort? ' he thought. Finally you spoke up " I can't tell you Eren, I can't tell anyone because I'm afraid. My fear is just too much for me. " Eren anger calmed a bit " What are you afraid of? " he asked looking right into your eyes " I'm afraid of getting hurt... Not being accepted " your voice came out as a soft whisper. " I've already been hurt before, when my mother died, when Petra died and I didn't save her, its all might fault she died " Eren remembered squad Levi's passing, seeing there body's around the place before he began a fight with the female titan for revenge " There no didn't to blame your self, there was nothing you could do ".

Your whole body seemed to freeze when he said that lie " I could have helped her, saved her , saved everyone. But I was stopped by her....... she saw, she knew at that moment I wanted to help. But even so she didn't want my help, she.... " you trailed off. Eren looked at you confused " what do you mean?, what could you have done? " he asked, Eren was very confused at your words ' Dose she think she could have helped? Is she just feeling really guilty for letting Petra die like that? ' he wondered while waiting for your response. You suddenly lost it " Why did I help her?! I could have saved her life, ALL there lives?! And yet I.......... " you shuffled off the bed and stranded at the side, clutching your head, slightly bent over " I'm trash, trash that doesn't deserve to live! I should just die! I had the power save her life and I didn't do it! ". Eren also quickly stood up and grabbed hold of your shoulders " No!, your not trash that should die!, Why would you think that?! And what do you mean you had the 'power to save her life'!? "

You looked up at him with a blank expression, like all your emotions had disappeared " I wanted to tell you, but again I was afraid. I was afraid you would hate me, that you would leave me, I'm sorry I didn't tell you " Eren shook you sightly " What do you mean (y/n)!?, what are you hiding!? " you swatted his hands off you and took a step back " Eren " you started





" I'm the same as you, I am a titan shifter "